Everyone struggles to find their identity and purpose. Little children, teens, young adults, and elderly all alike. Its just human nature. But what if you suddenly knew where you belonged? Like say for example that you were sitting in your room, bored on a Sunday night, facebook stalking. You know, the usual. And then it just hit you. That example, is mine.
In the past 2 weeks, I've been talking to two people a lot more than I ever have before and have learned so much about them. I never thought I'd learn anything about myself through them though. But thats where its the best. One of the people, decided to follow the Lord, because he saw the happiness the Lord gave me. The other person, had a best friend going through a really tough time in her life, and saw her fall down to her knees and welcome the Lord into her life.
Now, instead of wondering where I fit into this huge, unaccepting, judgemental, crazy, weird world, I know. I'm just here so that the Lord can work through me in other's lives. And thats the best feeling in the world.
Today in gym, I did something that I would have never even DREAMED of doing. Starting a conversation. For those of you who really know me, know that no matter how hard I try, I have the hardest time even walking up to my close friends, and saying "hey how are you doing?" They have to talk to me first. No matter what. Like, the idea of starting a conversation with someone makes me want to crawl into a ball and cry. But today, I don't know where that shyness went. I guess it flew out the window or something, but I literally walked right up to this kid in my class and said "Hey my name is Brooke. What is yours?" and He responded. then i said "oh hey ed" yeah. He didn't say Ed. Evan. Alright, there was my first strike. But anyways I kept going. "Oh Evan, sorry I thought you said Ed. Well anyways, how are you Evan?" And he kinda laughed at me, but then said "I'm doing great" and I said "thats wonderful" then we got called over to our squad lines or whatever. But anyways, point was, the Lord gave me strength to show what our society would label as a "weird kid" the love of Christ.
Its so cool to just know your purpose. We weren't put here on this earth to just be friends with people, but to love people.
Monday, January 30, 2012
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Wrong Timing?
Ever thought that what you were going to say was going to come out perfectly, and it was just gonna make sense to everyone who heard it but thats just totally not the case? Been there. Done that. Today actually.
I had the perfect thing to say today, I was going to tell my best friend about the greatest love in the whole world. However, instead, I choked. Couldn't get my words out. Resisted. I guess, talking just isn't my forte. Maybe I can just try to get everything out on here and maybe then it'll make sense and not sound so much like word-vomit.
You've made so many comments about how "no one loves you." And honestly, it kills me to hear you say things like that. Automatically, everytime you say that, I just want to look you in the eyes and say "If God is for us, then who can be against us?" Honestly, that is the greatest love in the whole world, and if only you could see it. But thats also what the cool thing is. Even though you don't see it right this very minute, and when things are hard, doesn't change the truth, that he still loves you.
Just one last note. "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life" -John 3:16 and then.... "but God shows his love for us in that while we are still sinners, Christ died for us" -Romans 5:8
When he was on that cross, he was thinking about you. Like, just think about that. The most powerful guy in the whole world, died for you. So that you could be best friends with him. And after your time on earth is up, you can be "kickin' it with Jesus". like, thats so cool. its the best.
Not only does he love you, but I love you. And thats why I wrote this. This is kinda where I was going with this today, but again, it didn't really come out right which was really upsetting, and even now, it could still be better, but hey, it works, right? I love you girl, stay strong. Talk to me if you need anything.
P.S. This is not only for my best friend that it was originally intended for. But it is for everyone.Take it into consideration. Love you guys.
I had the perfect thing to say today, I was going to tell my best friend about the greatest love in the whole world. However, instead, I choked. Couldn't get my words out. Resisted. I guess, talking just isn't my forte. Maybe I can just try to get everything out on here and maybe then it'll make sense and not sound so much like word-vomit.
You've made so many comments about how "no one loves you." And honestly, it kills me to hear you say things like that. Automatically, everytime you say that, I just want to look you in the eyes and say "If God is for us, then who can be against us?" Honestly, that is the greatest love in the whole world, and if only you could see it. But thats also what the cool thing is. Even though you don't see it right this very minute, and when things are hard, doesn't change the truth, that he still loves you.
Just one last note. "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life" -John 3:16 and then.... "but God shows his love for us in that while we are still sinners, Christ died for us" -Romans 5:8
When he was on that cross, he was thinking about you. Like, just think about that. The most powerful guy in the whole world, died for you. So that you could be best friends with him. And after your time on earth is up, you can be "kickin' it with Jesus". like, thats so cool. its the best.
Not only does he love you, but I love you. And thats why I wrote this. This is kinda where I was going with this today, but again, it didn't really come out right which was really upsetting, and even now, it could still be better, but hey, it works, right? I love you girl, stay strong. Talk to me if you need anything.
P.S. This is not only for my best friend that it was originally intended for. But it is for everyone.Take it into consideration. Love you guys.
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Thankful
So i realize that thanksgiving was a few weeks ago, and I should have been thinking about what I was thankful for then, but its kinda hitting me now.
So I'm getting home for school, and I realized that I didn't have my key. So naturally, I simply ring the doorbell thinking my brother is home. Well, he wasn't. Great. So I called my mom, told her the situation, and then went to sit in the back porch so I wouldn't get rained on. I sat there, in the cold, for 28 minutes. Finally my brother came home and could let me in.
I was sitting there, cold, shivering, and just wanting to be inside. Then I started to think. That was the first time that I have ever experienced something like that. Being vulnerable, helpless, in need. People go through that on a daily basis for years and years, before "their brother gets home to let them in." I never realized how thankful I am for the everyday things that i take for granted.
At small group on sunday, we were talking about being thankful for everyday things. Even something as simple as messy shoes - in the fact that we have enough shoes for them to be messy, and that we have spaces to just leave them. Our small group leader, Erica, encouraged all of us to start a list. of things we are thankful for. instead of doing it just for me, I'm going to put it out here. For everyone. And maybe whoever is reading this, might make on of their own. That'd be sweet. there are so many though. i'll stop at twenty today. i'll give you another list another time (:
My list of things I am thankful for <3
So I'm getting home for school, and I realized that I didn't have my key. So naturally, I simply ring the doorbell thinking my brother is home. Well, he wasn't. Great. So I called my mom, told her the situation, and then went to sit in the back porch so I wouldn't get rained on. I sat there, in the cold, for 28 minutes. Finally my brother came home and could let me in.
I was sitting there, cold, shivering, and just wanting to be inside. Then I started to think. That was the first time that I have ever experienced something like that. Being vulnerable, helpless, in need. People go through that on a daily basis for years and years, before "their brother gets home to let them in." I never realized how thankful I am for the everyday things that i take for granted.
At small group on sunday, we were talking about being thankful for everyday things. Even something as simple as messy shoes - in the fact that we have enough shoes for them to be messy, and that we have spaces to just leave them. Our small group leader, Erica, encouraged all of us to start a list. of things we are thankful for. instead of doing it just for me, I'm going to put it out here. For everyone. And maybe whoever is reading this, might make on of their own. That'd be sweet. there are so many though. i'll stop at twenty today. i'll give you another list another time (:
My list of things I am thankful for <3
- my house
- Jesus
- the cross
- love
- shoes
- socks
- my bed
- blankets
- pillows
- friends
- family
- my bible
- my journal
- brothers/sisters in christ
- relationships
- food
- clothes
- water
- school
- heating
Friday, November 18, 2011
Here i come - And I'm so ready
"the people who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones that do"
I'm sitting here, waiting. Waiting for YoungLife fall weekend, at Rockbridge Alum Springs. And I'm so ready. Who's not ready for hanging out with all of their friends, and eating tons of good food, and doing all of the fun stuff? I'm so excited for that. But what I'm most excited about, is hanging out with people that aren't my friends.
I've always been a shy person. No one really believes me when they hear me say that, but if you've ever talked to me at school or anything, you have most likely innitiated the conversation. Because I can honestly say, that is my biggest weakness in life- putting myself out there.
But this weekend, I feel like I'm so ready. I'm ready to put myself out there, talk to people I don't know, make some new friends, strengthen old relationships, and fix broken ones. At this point, I'm crazy enough to think that I could change the world. But I can. Everyone one can. I'm so ready to just sit behind an unfamilar face on the bus, or in club, walk down the sidewalk, and talk to someone.
Most importantly, I'm ready to show people Christ this weekend. They may not even understand, but I'm all for it. People have changed my life so drastically, and now its my turn to show others how I've changed, and who I am through Christ.
So bring it on, Rockbridge. I accept the challenge.
I'm sitting here, waiting. Waiting for YoungLife fall weekend, at Rockbridge Alum Springs. And I'm so ready. Who's not ready for hanging out with all of their friends, and eating tons of good food, and doing all of the fun stuff? I'm so excited for that. But what I'm most excited about, is hanging out with people that aren't my friends.
I've always been a shy person. No one really believes me when they hear me say that, but if you've ever talked to me at school or anything, you have most likely innitiated the conversation. Because I can honestly say, that is my biggest weakness in life- putting myself out there.
But this weekend, I feel like I'm so ready. I'm ready to put myself out there, talk to people I don't know, make some new friends, strengthen old relationships, and fix broken ones. At this point, I'm crazy enough to think that I could change the world. But I can. Everyone one can. I'm so ready to just sit behind an unfamilar face on the bus, or in club, walk down the sidewalk, and talk to someone.
Most importantly, I'm ready to show people Christ this weekend. They may not even understand, but I'm all for it. People have changed my life so drastically, and now its my turn to show others how I've changed, and who I am through Christ.
So bring it on, Rockbridge. I accept the challenge.
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Up until now...
Who would have thought that time would have flown by this fast?
Starting when i was about 18 months old, i started going to a private babysitter, Gail. My sister had already been going there, so we knew her pretty well. I didn't of course, because i was a baby, but my family did. She was such a great person, and definitely shaped my childhood in a dramatic way.
Also while I was there, I made a lifelong friend. There are no words that can even describe our relationship. From the fun times at my house riding down the long driveway in those plastic cars, jumping on my trampoline and making up "routines" for our parents, you drinking all of my chocolate milk and convincing me that I had already drank it, and so much more. But in the past year, its transformed into so much more than that. I can come up to you laughing until my stomach hurts, crying my eyes out, or just in a good mood and you always know how to handle it. To be real honest, it sorta blows my mind. The fact that you always have the right words off of the tip of your tongue, to make me feel better, or celebrate with me, is insane.
Literally, there are no words that I could ever write down on paper that could ever describe my thankfulness, joy, pride, and love for you.
To tell you the truth, I would not be the same person I am right now if you weren't in my life. You've lead me to my best friend, Jesus Christ, and that in itself shows me how wonderful you are. If i were to list off everything you've done for me, this post would be way to long and no one would want to read it. So i'll leave it at that, but I just want you to know how special you are to me. I love you.
Starting when i was about 18 months old, i started going to a private babysitter, Gail. My sister had already been going there, so we knew her pretty well. I didn't of course, because i was a baby, but my family did. She was such a great person, and definitely shaped my childhood in a dramatic way.
Also while I was there, I made a lifelong friend. There are no words that can even describe our relationship. From the fun times at my house riding down the long driveway in those plastic cars, jumping on my trampoline and making up "routines" for our parents, you drinking all of my chocolate milk and convincing me that I had already drank it, and so much more. But in the past year, its transformed into so much more than that. I can come up to you laughing until my stomach hurts, crying my eyes out, or just in a good mood and you always know how to handle it. To be real honest, it sorta blows my mind. The fact that you always have the right words off of the tip of your tongue, to make me feel better, or celebrate with me, is insane.
Literally, there are no words that I could ever write down on paper that could ever describe my thankfulness, joy, pride, and love for you.
To tell you the truth, I would not be the same person I am right now if you weren't in my life. You've lead me to my best friend, Jesus Christ, and that in itself shows me how wonderful you are. If i were to list off everything you've done for me, this post would be way to long and no one would want to read it. So i'll leave it at that, but I just want you to know how special you are to me. I love you.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
What keeps me truckin'
"The gun goes off and everything changes... the world changes... and nothing else really matters"
- Patti Sue Plummer
You can relate this quote to nearly any sport. The obvious gun shot for track or cross country, first blow of the whistle in soccer, the first serve in a volleyball game, first pitch in a baseball game. As soon as you make that first move, everything around you changes- the way you treat people, talk to them, whether you listen to them or not. Everything changes. The only goal for you and everyone around you is to win, of course. But what if you don't? Do you quit afterwards, or do you stand back up on your feet?
Now relate that to Christ.
The Lord, put himself on a cross for us, knowing we didn't deserve us, but loved us enough to do it anyways. And thats what amazes me. Thats what "keeps me truckin'"
- Patti Sue Plummer
You can relate this quote to nearly any sport. The obvious gun shot for track or cross country, first blow of the whistle in soccer, the first serve in a volleyball game, first pitch in a baseball game. As soon as you make that first move, everything around you changes- the way you treat people, talk to them, whether you listen to them or not. Everything changes. The only goal for you and everyone around you is to win, of course. But what if you don't? Do you quit afterwards, or do you stand back up on your feet?
Now relate that to Christ.
- gun shot - accepting Christ
- everything changes - your outlook on how you can change the world
- winning - the Lod has taught you something
- losing - Sin
The Lord, put himself on a cross for us, knowing we didn't deserve us, but loved us enough to do it anyways. And thats what amazes me. Thats what "keeps me truckin'"
Monday, November 7, 2011
Bucket List
I've always wanted to create a bucket list. Every one has always said since they were a little kid, that they want to "grow up and be a doctor, make a ton of money, and travel the world." But have you really stopped to think about what is important to you? What you want to have accomplished in your life, by the time you reach the kingdom of God. I took a step back tonight, and just thought. Thought to myself about what i truly want to do with my life. and this is what i've come up with.
1.Make a bucket list
2. spend a day by myself- turn off my cell phone. no facebook, or twitter, nothing. just Me.
3. run a half marathon.
5. join BVS (brethern volunteer service) and go on mission trips to third world countries
6. share the gospel with a stranger
7. find my spiritual gift (and put it to use)
8. memorize an entire chapter of the bible. most likely one of the gospels. (aka anything but malachi, because basically.. its about a town building a wall...)
9. Forgive someone
10. and of course... find my Prince Charming
Some of you might be thinking.. why did i make "to forgive someone" stand out? Thats what my next blog will be about. I'll leave you with a little cliff hanger.
1.
2. spend a day by myself- turn off my cell phone. no facebook, or twitter, nothing. just Me.
3. run a half marathon.
5. join BVS (brethern volunteer service) and go on mission trips to third world countries
6. share the gospel with a stranger
7. find my spiritual gift (and put it to use)
8. memorize an entire chapter of the bible. most likely one of the gospels. (aka anything but malachi, because basically.. its about a town building a wall...)
9. Forgive someone
10. and of course... find my Prince Charming
Some of you might be thinking.. why did i make "to forgive someone" stand out? Thats what my next blog will be about. I'll leave you with a little cliff hanger.
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