looking for yourself out there

Everyone struggles to find their identity and purpose. Little children, teens, young adults, and elderly all alike. Its just human nature. But what if you suddenly knew where you belonged? Like say for example that you were sitting in your room, bored on a Sunday night, facebook stalking. You know, the usual. And then it just hit you. That example, is mine.

In the past 2 weeks, I've been talking to two people a lot more than I ever have before and have learned so much about them. I never thought I'd learn anything about myself through them though. But thats where its the best. One of the people, decided to follow the Lord, because he saw the happiness the Lord gave me. The other person, had a best friend going through a really tough time in her life, and saw her fall down to her knees and welcome the Lord into her life.

Now, instead of wondering where I fit into this huge, unaccepting, judgemental, crazy, weird world, I know. I'm just here so that the Lord can work through me in other's lives. And thats the best feeling in the world.

Today in gym, I did something that I would have never even DREAMED of doing. Starting a conversation. For those of you who really know me, know that no matter how hard I try, I have the hardest time even walking up to my close friends, and saying "hey how are you doing?" They have to talk to me first. No matter what. Like, the idea of starting a conversation with someone makes me want to crawl into a ball and cry. But today, I don't know where that shyness went. I guess it flew out the window or something, but I literally walked right up to this kid in my class and said "Hey my name is Brooke. What is yours?" and He responded. then i said "oh hey ed" yeah. He didn't say Ed. Evan. Alright, there was my first strike. But anyways I kept going. "Oh Evan, sorry I thought you said Ed. Well anyways, how are you Evan?" And he kinda laughed at me, but then said "I'm doing great" and I said "thats wonderful" then we got called over to our squad lines or whatever. But anyways, point was, the Lord gave me strength to show what our society would label as a "weird kid" the love of Christ.

Its so cool to just know your purpose. We weren't put here on this earth to just be friends with people, but to love people.